I understand that feeling. It usually happens when I’m at my FATTEST, not when I’m thin. I’ve been so close to ideal weight that I almost felt thin, but at that time, I never felt like I was “done being fat.”
The moments when I am at my most aggravated and most angry with fat are when I’m the fattest. But, the words, “I’m done being fat,” have two meanings. It can mean I am so frustrated with my body that I can’t take being fat, but it can also mean that I’m thin now.
Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to say those words and mean that I am thin now and done being fat ever again.
This motivational poster from I CAN DO IT is wonderful!
It reads:
The more you stare fear in the face, the less of a face fear has.
Eddie Harris, Jr.
For me, weight loss and exercise has nothing to do with fear. At least, I don’t think it does. It’s more about trading present pleasure for future pleasure. Do I run my butt off right now so that I’m stronger tomorrow? Do I skip that peanut butter and jelly snack for a thinner body in the future? Too many times, I have chosen present pleasure and you can tell by just looking at me.
It’s not fear that’s holding me back. It’s lack of planning for the future.
The next time you are thinking of skipping out on your workout, remember how good it feels when it’s done. You don’t have to worry about it for the rest of the day. You can brag about how you “ran” this morning. You’ll get those delicious endorphins that make you feel happier all day.
I don’t know how I found this television series. I think it might have been a YouTube featured video, but I am so glad I found it. My Mad Fat Diary is a British TV series that started in January of this year and it treats eating disorders so spot on that I just couldn’t stop watching.
This scene is from the second episode and it is brilliant.
This show has really become a battle cry for self-acceptance and I just love it. So does arthlete. She has drawn quite a few of Rae-focused illustrations, but this one is my favorite: Arthlete: Rae and My Mad Fat Diary
It reads:
You can’t spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you, and you have to start by not rejecting yourself. You don’t deserve it. From now on, people can either accept you for who you are or they can FUCK OFF.
I can’t really show you any of her other illustrations, because they are spoilers.
You can see the entire first season here, but be careful. Space the episodes out so that you don’t consume them in a huge binge like I did.
It is possible to drink too much water and hurt yourself, but most of us fall shy of the eight cups of water a day, so start keeping track and see if it helps you feel full and energized. So many times, when I go to the fridge to find some food, I realize that I’m THIRSTY, not hungry. When I make sure I drink eight cups of water a day, that never happens.
Workout your mind mind – Workout your body
Move your mind – Move your mind mind
Move your body, every everybody.
Move your body, come on now everybody.
If you wanna to move the world, start with your body.
Yo, come on, you gotta start with something.
If you wanna move your mind, just move your body.
Move your mind, move your mind, it’s gonna cost you nothing.
If you wanna move someone, start with your body.
Yo, come on, and try to move somebody.
If you wanna move alone,
Then everybody will move along with you.
I found this great dance video with the same song here:
The truth is, moving your body is a GREAT way to shake the cobwebs out of your mind. It sets you free from your rumination and lets you think clearly. Exercise can dissipate negative moods and alleviate your depression.
Conversely, if you focus on fitness and succeeding, your mind can make your workouts easier. Imagining how good you’ll feel after the workout can make your time exercising better. Visualizing your success will help you get there quicker.
We like to think that our minds are separate from our bodies, but they are tied together with sinew, hormones and blood. If you want to make your mind better, move your body. If you want to make your body better, move your mind.
It’s true in both the positive sense AND the negative. If you decide that the plan you have been religiously following and seeing success with doesn’t work, it will STOP working. This is ALL a mind game. Play it in your favor.