Starling Fitness: Daily writings on Fitness, Diet, and Health

I saw this picture on Funeral For My Fat and it helped me today.

It reads:

The only real failure in life is the failure to try.

I’ve started “trying” again. I have been “trying” for YEARS. I have been “trying” for my whole freakin’ life, actually.

I wrote my first Starling Fitness entry on October 29, 2003. My ten year anniversary came and went without mention because I’m STILL trying. I’m not at a healthy weight. I’m not physically fit. Fighting entropy and my own disordered eating is still a struggle after all of these years.

And I feel like a failure.

Shouldn’t I be at goal by now? I’ve had ten LONG years to do it! Why am I still fighting this?

I may feel like a failure, but I’m not, because I’m still trying. I’m still working on it. Perhaps I will find the way to conquer this ethereal hunger that doesn’t seem to plague skinny people. The only way I can find the answer is to keep looking. Keep working out and to keep trying.