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I find that I am reluctant to be in front of the camera. It’s because I weigh more now than I did last year at this time and I don’t like how I look. I don’t know how hiding behind a camera can change that fact, but somehow I have to be able to get past this.

Have you been hiding from cameras? Why?

What would you have to look like to feel good about being in front of the camera? Does hiding from the camera (or mirrors) change the way you look?

Does it change the way you feel about yourself?

Is it possible to love yourself no matter what you look like?

How would you go about accepting yourself as you are now AND working to make yourself better?

Are those contradictory terms?

I am going to get in front of the camera again, despite my weight gain. Avoiding the camera and mirrors is just my way of trying to forget that I gained weight. If I avoid the truth, I’ll never be able to be healthy.