Starling Fitness: Daily writings on Fitness, Diet, and Health

Last Thursday, I ate really well. I was tempted many times to over eat, but I ate healthy. I think it was hard going to Weight Watchers and having my weight say I was three pounds heavier…

Logically, I know that it’s just because I weighed in the middle of the day instead of at the first of the day and because I was wearing jeans instead of workout clothes, but it was still hard. When I weighed on my home scale that morning, it said the same weight as when I weighed in the previous Saturday. I wouldn’t have gone into Weight Watchers at all, but I didn’t want to go three whole weeks without a weigh-in and the inspiration of the meetings. Since they are closed over the Christmas holiday, I went in the day before they closed their doors so I could keep motivated. I just want to keep my progress going. I want to lose a pound a week and I can do it easily if I stay focused.

I know that I have laser beam focus that I can apply to this. The only thing is that my laser beam has only lasted for a maximum of three or four months. Most of the time, I focus tightly on something for a month or so and do an incredible amount of work on the project and then rest for a few months. With weight loss, however, it doesn’t work like that. I can’t just focus completely on weight loss and have it all be done in a month. There is no way. Firstly, I need to learn how to do this and keep working on the other important things in my life. Secondly, quick weight loss is not healthy. I could probably lose all that I needed to lose in about four months, but it wouldn’t be healthy and I wouldn’t have learned how to include healthy eating and exercise into my normal life. By turning my life into “Laura is Losing Weight” mode, I would be defeating the purpose that I want.

I wouldn’t be learning how to live a healthy life. I wouldn’t be learning how to stay thin the rest of my life. It would just be another binge in the place of food. I would be bingeing on exercise and a strict eating regimen. That’s not my goal. My goal is to eliminate bingeing from my life altogether. I don’t want to binge on the good things or the bad things. Sure, I can binge and write 50,000 words in a month, but look at how hard it has been for me to get back to writing. I don’t want that in my life. I want to be able to do a little bit every day. If I were to write 500 words a day on my novel, then I wouldn’t get sick of it and I could write 500 more the next day. Every time I wrote a 3000 word day, I would need to rest afterward. Every time I go overboard with exercise, I need to rest for days afterward. If I can just stick to a small workout every single day, I would be much healthier.

This is my goal: living in moderation. I can do amazing things when I’m up against a wall. I want to teach myself to do relatively good things every day. I can be Insanely Great, but I am looking for a Simple Moderation that has always been elusive to me.